i carry your heart

ive actually got other less intense & more interesting topics to blog about. but these need more brainwork & research & im not up to that right now so a condensed personal sharing is all you'll get ;)

it was an emotionally draining week for me last. close friends needed me so i played little ms agony a couple of nights in a row. had personal issues too - struggling to love pple genuinely, realising the sinfulness of us all, the effects of that on ministry, thinking through decisions that have to be made. late nights, long chats, little sleep & many burdens/pple to pray for meant a less than enthused me by end of the week.

so sleep was a welcome respite this weekend. that & getting away from it all for awhile in the movie, In Her Shoes.

a delightful tale about two sisters & their struggle to grow up individually & as a pair. amidst strained rships and a childhood that was sweet & sad at the same time. a story of forgiveness, reconciliation & family ties. very real, very poignant, very moving. hardly the floozy chick flick i was expecting!

there was a scene in the show where one sister recited this poem to the other. i cried buckets here.

i carry your heart with me (by ee cummings)

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

the intensity of love & intimacy shared by those two made me kinda envious. im wondering if id get a glimpse of such love if i had a sister? at times like these i really wish i had siblings!

then again, the body of Christ is my family. the pple that share their sorrows & trials with me are my sisters, brothers... and i love them dearly.

praying for each of you... you know who you are. hugs.