reencounters

this is inspired by Ling’s recent entry :)

Hands up – how many of us have had those terribly torturous crushes in sec school, JC that seemed to last for eons? the heart racing, eyes darting, feet jittering (ok I exaggerate) that grips you when the super cute, desirable guy (or girl) walks past / catches your eye / talks to you?

Don’t bluff okay. Surely have – at least ONE?

Haha I had, lets see… at least 2 major crushes in JC? One developed into a really great friendship & case of bad timing. Felt like crazy for him for close to a year & finally got over it. THEN he came around and wanted to take it further. Too late, brother. The other, tackily nicknamed mmmbop (don’t ask why! it was just a popular song then & the first thing we thought of while trying to speak in code during a math lecture) had a hold over me for quite awhile. He was tall, smart, witty, athletic… gathered from others that he was a good christian boy & a fillial son to boot! None of my friends thought he was much of a looker BUT I thought he was super duper cute! The kind that you spot in a crowd in the first wk of school, during orientation? hahahah

Anyhow, we weren’t really good friends (not much contact besides the occasional icq chats!) & pretty much split ways after JC. 4 years on, a mutual friend suggested doing dinner since he was back in town for abit. I thought: okay, ive been working awhile now, been in & out of a long rship, seen the world, grown up. he is still in uni, young chap, inexperienced blahblah. chey, surely i can handle dinner with mr old crush. BRING IT ON!

Armed with new-found confidence, we met. Believe it or not, he managed to bowl me over. ALL OVER AGAIN. argh.

He was still the same – witty, funny, cute, endearing, engaging. We talked about everything from work to missions to singleness. He cracked his usual stupid, corny jokes (did I mentioned I love corny? :)) and my defenses melted like ice through dinner. For a few moments, I felt 17 again. sigh, left dinner conquered & smitten (of cos he had no clue lar, im very good at acting bochap one). Smitten only for the next week or so after lar :) Thankfully he flew off back to studyland & we didn’t meet again for another year.

Anyhow, I insist im over him lar. Its just kinda fun to gush & be smitten once in awhile… makes you feel like a teen again. Hahahah opps there goes my credibility.

Thing is, the forbidden, mysterious, seemingly unobtainable always seem more attractive, desirable. It’s the lie & flaw of our human nature. If im rational about it, I don’t think me & mmmbop are all that compatible. Its funny how some people can just push your buttons in a way that others just can’t. What do you call that? Chemistry? Don’t know man. Anyway, these days I believe less & less in love at first sight/encounter. Think chemistry is abit overrated & is something that can be developed or more accurately, discovered over time as both parties reveal more… you think?

Okay ive shared my embarrassing crush re-encounter. Now share yours! ;)