awful annoyance

argh. there are moments in a day where i wish i didnt have to deal with anyone. really. esp naggy, unreasonable, utterly annoying vendors/colleagues.

i feel annoyed at them and at myself at the same time. feel really urked that she was rude & being a pain. classic case of two selfish, proud persons both unwillingly to step back, be gracious.

but more than annoyance with her, i feel disappointed & disgusted w myself. i hang up & feel awful for not being patient, for being curt, for not giving in more. its like ive all these opportunities to be kind, exercise self-control, demonstrate patience & i flop more times than grace wins.

i hate being this ugly. this fleshly, sinful nature is such a drag sometimes. i just wanna go home & curl up in bed :(

i feel like a little girl

trying to conquer the whole wide world

everybody wants a piece of me

i just dont know where to turn

ive got work piled up to my head

all i want to do is jump into bed

and wash away my troubles with lemonade

play hide & seek w the boy next door...

all i need is a good disguise

something nobody can recognise

that im feeling so small

all i need is a secret weapon

ive got to have faith

zapping monsters into outerspace...

little superhero girl

save me from myself

bits of 'little superhero girl' by corrinne may